Aide-Mémorie 1 - Thinking Thoughts

Lying in bed, too tired to sleep. The body is exhausted, but my brain demands all the oxygen from the slowly breathing lungs. I want to sleep, but thoughts are racing through my head. Realizing that being able to feel a wave of stimuli flow across your brain is a pleasant thought in itself.

The clenching of my jaws to send more blood in the direction of my thinking ensure a warm feeling that no longer only exists in my brain, but also extends to the other parts of the head. Knowing that you can best understand emotions when you try to explain them in phrased sentences, you talk to yourself. As I exchange thoughts with myself, I think about my thoughts and how best to exchange them. A chaos of which you know nothing could actually ever make any more sense.

Thinking Thoughts

I don't have these types of nights often, but probably more often than I think. It's these nights where I can reflect on the time passed, becoming a third person observing the conversation held between myself and correcting the thoughts when thought wrong. After all, the conversation is between two thoughts of one person.

Gradually, whether I am over it or not, my brain is getting more tired than my body and I finally drift into sleep. I feel the stimulating waves over my brain diminish and the tension loosens from my jaw. Finally, a state in which the brain and body can give in to each other's fatigue.